Thesaurus

Getting back into blogging is not as easy as I thought it would be.

It's gone kind of like this:

Elizabeth sits down with a McDouble and cold glass of Dr. Pepper and gleefully types out a mediocre blog post.

"Hey," she thinks to herself, "this isn't half bad."

Feeling nostalgic, she goes back to read some of her older blog posts. 


"Dang." she mutters under her breath, "I used to be way more clever than I am now. I'll just have to write about something even better. Let's see. 

I've already covered MacGuyver. 

And Where in the World is Carmen Sandiego.

And kids lighting couches on fire in my driveway.

Hmm. I don't know if I can top that.

Unless a gang of hooligans uses a molotov cocktail to light fire to a whole bedroom set on my front porch. 

No, that sounds pretty dangerous.

I'm out."

Then Elizabeth closes her browser window and stares blankly while scrolling through pinterest for three hours, planning which scarf she's going to make out of old t-shirts next.

The end.

No, this road back to blogging hasn't been easy. I have a few tricks up my sleeve to come up with ideas.

1. I think of my childhood memories.  There's enough material there to last years.

2.  I think of the ridiculous things my kids have done lately.  I actually have a list of them on my computer in a Word document.  I'm such a great mom.

3.  I go to thesaurus.com   They usually have some crazy words that sometimes will trigger a thought process in my weirdo brain.  A lot of times I go there when I'm stuck and can't find the right word to finish my thought.

Today I went to thesaurus.com because I couldn't think of the word "nostalgic."  I actually didn't find it on the website because I got distracted. What did I get distracted by, you ask?  This.

Thesaurus.com challenged me to a duel of perspicacity. (I looked that up on thesaurus.com)  A showdown of the ages.  They asked me "How Many Words Do You Know? Take our test!" Challenge accepted.

You can't slap me in the face with your leather glove and expect me to walk away. Okay. Most of the time you can.  But if it's a challenge to take an online quiz that determines the size and skill level of my vocabulary, I'm in.

You know what?  I did pretty well.  I'm not going to say how well, because I don't want to be a braggart, but I'm pretty impressed with myself.

I think I'm on par with a college professor or something. Astronaut. Neurosurgeon. Linguist. Something like that.

You know me.... the Bible College drop out. The girl who told people she wanted to be Amy Grant when she grew up.

The truth is I'm kind of past my prime. I was one of those really smart kids in school.  You know, one of those "Gifted and Talented" students.  I remember when I was in first grade, the school counselor pulled me out of class for an evaluation.

Of course they didn't tell me what the evaluation was for.  I thought they were checking for learning disabilities. Or because I talked funny.

She started asking me to choose definitions for words she would give me.  They started out easy. Cat. Shoe. Stuff like that.

Soon the words got harder and harder.  They turned into contiguous and perpendicular. Splendorific. (I made that one up. Just want to make sure you're paying attention.)

I faintly remember feeling like crying and thinking they were going to kick me out of the school for being dumb. 

I hadn't felt this stupid since the day my kindergarten teacher took us outside to show us that the blue sky goes all the way to the ground because she was sick of us coloring our pictures with the sky being a thin ribbon of blue at the top of our papers.

The thing is they weren't being mean.

I had to be tested to see how far I could go. 

I had to be stretched so I had room to grow. (bam. That rhymed. I should be a slam poet.)

Even today I get in those situations that feel ridiculously impossible that make me want to cry and think about how dumb I am and how I'm failing everyone, especially God.

But really I'm just being stretched.

Because those words that stumped me as a child are a part of my vocabulary now.

Okay, maybe not contiguous.

But most of them. Which mean the impossible was attainable. Once I grew.

So, don't give up or be too hard on yourself when you fail.  Don't feel like God abandoned you if you are in the midst of an impossible situation.

He may just be preparing you for something bigger.

Because He loves you.

And He knows your potential.  Better than you know yourself.

Teenagers

When I started substitute teaching I refused to do high school.  As in, I put on my application that I would be willing to teach grades k-8.  After teaching one kindergarten class for a couple of days, that immediately changed to grades 1-8. But I digress.

High schoolers freaked me out a little.  They're kind of, well, they're kind of punks sometimes.  And not so lovable. The cuteness has worn off by that point.  They're just a big ball of hormones and B.O.  And they read Twilight.  And I was pretty sure that I wasn't cool enough for them anyway.

It's just like how Trevor and I knew that we were not called to be youth pastors.  Funny, most people assumed that as young people in ministry that we should be youth pastors.  But I would surely let people know that we did not have an affinity for teenagers.

Then my little boy started kindergarten.  I got involved with the goings on of his school (which goes from K-12 grade).  Soon I found myself volunteering to help with the Christmas program.  Of all things, what did I end up doing?  Working with a bunch of high school kids.

A choir of high school kids.

High school kids who had never been in a choir before.

Yeah.

I was handed a list of 11 songs for us to sing for a performance that was 4 weeks away.

Eleven songs. Four weeks.

And I was informed that most of the choir members were voluntold to join the choir.

Right.

I walked into the practice room that first day with apprehension.  I had that feeling of foreboding that usually means a disaster is headed my way.

And I was met by the greatest group of kids that wanted to sing. At least they were nice enough to pretend like they wanted to sing in front of me.  God bless them.

They worked their butts off.

They skipped lunches.

They came in to practice on school vacation days.

And when the day of the performance came, they brought down the house.

No one expected this little group of high schoolers to show up with so much heart.

The audience cheered, clapped, and sang along.

There wasn't a dry eye in the house.

These teenagers surprised everyone.

Especially me.

Because they got to me, and now I can't shake them.

They're my kids now.

(Plus, one of the guys noticed I dyed my hair today. Seriously!)

Have you ever been surprised by someone that you didn't really give a fair chance to begin with?  Makes me think I should try to be friends with people who are Michigan fans.

Nah.

Baby steps.

Lost Phones

My mom is in the hospital tonight.

When she sees that I wrote something about it on my blog (and facebook) she'll probably be embarrassed.

But you see, my mom's been bugging me about blogging again.  She's told me a few times "You know, I keep clicking on that blog of yours to see if you've written anything lately, and I'm always disappointed to see you haven't."

It's been very encouraging to hear that my mom cares about such a little thing as my blog.

I can't be with her tonight.  So, I figured the least I could do is write a post for her.

So, here goes.

I haven't written in a while.  During that time my little girl who was just a few months old when I started this blog has blossomed into a very entertaining 18 month old. 

She charms everyone who meets her and puts on quite the show.  I think Trevor hits the nail on the head when he says "She has a personality only God himself could have come up with."

Ainsley also has an affinity with putting things away (praise the Lord someone in our family has finally inherited my mom's genes when it comes to cleaning up).  If she can't figure out where the item in her possession belongs (which is almost always), it ends up in the garbage can. 

I have found so many things in the garbage can that shouldn't have been there.  Makes me wonder what I didn't catch before it got thrown out for good.

I've caught her trying to dispose of our phone three times.  I don't know what her personal vendetta is against telephones, but it gets violent at times.  Once I found the phone dismantled and shoved inside a McDonald's bag in the trash can.  One of these days I'm going to find it at the bottom of a bathtub full of water with a brick tied to it.

So when the phone turned up missing a month or so ago I figured it made its weekly pilgrimage to visit the soiled diapers and banana peels. 

I looked in the can. Not there. I realized that yesterday was garbage day. And this was a new bag.

Uh oh.

We held out hope that the phone would turn up somewhere around the house.  After a couple of days of looking, we assumed the worst and threw out the charging stations and cords. 

It was a lost cause. 

We even went as far as to cancel our home phone completely.  We don't use it much anymore, so we figured we wouldn't miss it.

A couple of weeks later I was digging in our couch, looking for a pair of keys (that ironically were later found in the trash can) when I pulled out our phone.

The phone I had completely given up on.  It was right under my bum this whole time.

You know what I've been sitting on all this time?

Lots of stuff.

You know how you find something you really love, and then you go through a bad patch, get discouraged and give up? 

Then you fall behind on your expectations and think it's a lost cause.

I do that with pretty much everything. 

I did that with writing.

But the lost phone's meaning was not lost on me. 

Most of our dreams that we think are long gone are within arms reach.

We're just sitting on them.

What are you sitting on?